Monday, May 3, 2021

[Youtube] We will change, but let's not drift apart (comments from Don't Go fancam)






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- This world that can't last forever and keeps changing is heartless. It hurts that the more I recollect the memories, the more my heart aches. You had been there in my childhood. Baekhyun, I still love you so much.

- Hyun ah, I miss you so much. The world is getting colder and colder and I, who try to keep up with it, am also getting colder and more sensitive, so I get exhausted as the days go by. At those times when I think I will be able get a little warmer, I come to find you here. I thought you of this time were already at the top that there wouldn't be any higher place where you could go to but it isn't true. You have somewhere to go up. But I wonder why I am still at the bottom? Do I have to struggle more? Hyun ah, I don't regret any moment that I like you, and I will continue to love you in the future. I will do my best so that I can shine in the same spot with you. I wish you to be happier and warmer than anyone else.

- I have been coming here like a habit recently. I come to find you all day when I'm so tired. Baekhyun in the video is still the same, but I, you too, and also the world becomes so different. I was a student back then, but now I'm an adult and Baekhyun is already 30 years old. Time really flies. I don't know why I cry whenever I listen to 'Don't Go'. I guess I was really happy back then. And you have always been the center of my happiness. You are so important to me to the point I wonder could I live like this without you. I'm not able to understand all your pain and sadness, but I hope this relationship in which we can give each other a pat and cheer each other up to continue.

- Baekhyun-ah, the world keeps changing. Things that seemed to last forever break into pieces again and again. But even when I can no longer hold in my hand everything that I have known, I know you remain unchanged in this 3 minutes 33 seconds. When it's a day when I feel exhausted like everything is falling down, I come to find 24-year-old you. My man that stopped in this time. My forever Peter Pan.

Uhmm... in fact, those days when I was wearing school uniform and listening to Peter Pan, I thought about how would I be when I turn 40 years old. At that age, I would have a pretty daughter and I would miss the youth we shared together... but it is little overwhelming that the emptiness came earlier than I thought. How about you? I hope they won't be days that are too hard for you.

Baekhyun-ah, we have had such wonderful times.  I'm still constantly loving you. I embrace every footprint you leave in this spacious world of 0 and 1. Thus, my love is only getting bigger. Baekhyun ah. My love ah. We are going to change, but let's not drift apart.

> Beloved Hyun ah. Recently you talk about things that you never talked about before. I wonder has it reached another limit... Is it because the pain you have been holding in your heart is oozing out because there is no more space left for it. I'm already used to it, so I feel sad every night.

Baekhyun ah, let's not cling to people that come then leave you. The tree doesn't protect you, the forest does. Don't forget that it's not your fault even if you find an old tree that is rotting away among those in the forest. Let's just take a deep breath. Let's fill the lungs with warm air.

There is no need to satisfy everyone. There is no need to embrace everyone. I love Baekhyun who grows every moment, but sometimes it is okay to loosen up and rest by our side. I like the way you show us your new images. But your heart that prepares everything for us is more beautiful, which is exactly what holds our hearts for you. I hope you know that fact.

I always love you, Baekhyun ah. 




- Baekhyun ah. One year and six months? It is really nothing compared to our ten years together. But what makes me cry is your heart which is as upset as we are and your words saying how you go through the schedules until the end because you are worried about the emptiness that we may feel. How can I not be unperturbed when I see you saying that you're preparing everything before leaving while you look proud and sad at the same time? I just cried a little today because I feel grateful for those things.

You know, it was a very good thing that I decided to love you. I feel great because it is the same feeling as the moment when you decided to be a singer. Baekhyun ah. Baekhyun ah. I love you so much. I don't know since when we have got here. I'm 21 years old and Baekhyun is still vividly real. Our friendship becomes so much stronger even before we realize it. Right? I cried a lot and laughed even so much more because of you for 10 years. I can't imagine what life I would have without you.

Baekhyun who always smiles for us and does his best to make us laugh. Even during a live filled with love and consideration from the beginning to the end, if the mood seems to go down, he will try to make jokes to raise your tension. Now you can tell it by the look on his face. "Let's laugh, come on, don't be like that and let's laugh" Your eyes that say that ironically make me cry.

Baekhyun ah. Let's be patient for a little longer and we will see each other soon. Then we will hug you with thunderous shouts. I love you, as always.

Baekhyun ah, why do I want to come to this place so frequently like this? When we look back in the future, I believe that this is also the process of our love reaching another stage. That's growing pains. Right?

How can you make a fuss like this. How can you be so full of love and consideration? It has been ten years. I cried so much like a child when I received your letter today. I can't even estimate your firmness. To this cool person, I am sad that there is nothing I can say except for thank you. To the person that I don't even feel upset if I can be sick on his behalf, I hope you are as happy as possible and stay healthy as ever. I love you. Thank you so much.

(t/n: this user leaves comments several times for months, a part of their comments were translated in the previous part)

- Two years ago, I came here and left a comment saying thank you for constantly receiving love and giving love. And today it's the 10th anniversary I'm proud of the relationship between a great singer and fans and I want to go with you forever. I'll be waiting for you Baekhyun ah, so don't get injured, don't get sick and come back safely ❤️

- One year and nine months, and it is just a little time compared to the time we are going to spend together so far, but the thought of saying goodbye with you keeps making me cry. I will grow up more while you aren't here, Baekhyun ah. Sometimes I would cry because I miss you, but time will fly. Thank you so much for everything so far. Please take care of me in the future as well. I love you, Baekhyun ah. As always, like other days, today is the day I miss you.

- When I was in elementary school or middle school, my friend saw me fangirling over Baekhyun and asked me if I would still like Baekhyun until he enlists. I had school meals and until now when Baekhyun's enlistment is just around the corner, I still like him. My beloved Baekhyun ah, you are going to enlist next week, so I hope you don't get hurt and spend the training period well. I will work hard and wait for you in a year and nine months. I believe you will adjust as well as you always do. I'll be waiting for you.

- I hope Baekhyun can watch this video if he has a hard time in the future. I think there are only people who like Baekhyun leaving comments in the video, so I want him to look at the comments. Baekhyun ah, I always like you and I hope you will always be happy. There are so many people who like you like this. Let's always cheer up. Baekhyun ah. I really love you so much.

- Looking back again, Byun Baekhyun is legendary enough to go down in history at that time. This must be a very precious moment for both Baekhyun as well as Eris that shared their feelings in the same space at that time. Baekhyun ah, enlist well and come back safely! When you come back, we will still stay the same. If we work hard in our positions respectively, we will eventually meet again at one point! I'm always rooting for you.

- Baekhyun ah, I came back here again because I miss you today. There is nothing more beautiful in the world than you dancing to 'Don't Go'. You who become my every moment, thank you. You who let me know how is the feeling of loving someone, let me know how being loved is such a good thing, I truly love and like you. Even if there is nothing eternal in the world, I hope you are eternal in this video. Let's be happy as much as in this moment, Baekhyun ah. I want April to never end... I love you, my love ah ♡

- Baekhyun who is my forever Peter Pan and butterfly, I hope you will always be happy and even happier than anyone else. It hurts to see you having schedules before you go, but I'm so grateful and I love you. Go and come back quickly, and let's meet soon at Kyoongcon. Let's see each other with happy faces. We will definitely wait for you so that we can proudly tell you that "We waited for you."

- Baekhyun ah, when I hear 'Don't Go', it always reminds me that you are my youth. My youth remains unchanged and eternal, so I hope you will still become my youth after you discharge. I will always cheer and wait for you from there.

- Baekhyun ah, you're the past, the present, and the future. Your existence isn't a just memory, your existence is a part of every moment. Thanks to you, I believe in forever. I will be with you forever. I love you, Baekhyun ah.

- I think it's true that first love is unforgettable. Baekhyun ah, even until now I'm still looking for you habitually. Suddenly, countless memories that I drew with you come to me like waves, often touching my heart and shouting to me to visit you. Baekhyun ah, it is not too exaggerated to to define my whole teenage youth as you to the point that you were my everything. You are the first person that let me know what love is and how to go through it together.


- Baekhyun ah, thank you for being born, for debuting, for singing. I’ll wait for you. No matter how many months, how many years, these feet won’t be moving and will wait for you. Don’t worry about anything at all, go and come back safely. When you come back, let’s be happier. I’ll miss you a lot. I like you and love you a lot, Baekhyun ah.

- There are so many first steps I have taken with you that as time goes by whenever I want to go back to the beginning, you come to my mind naturally. So it's you again. It's always you. The love you give out is so big that I feel bad for not being able to give back to you even just a half of half of it. Still, I need your love and receive only. Take the love, you deserve the love, I'm always here.

- Without your love, I'm just a spoiled child who is helpless without any strength. So when you come back, I will still be here loving you and you just need to receive love. I'm sure about that. So let's love today and also tomorrow without any worries.

- Baekhyun ah, even when time passes by, you was shining in every moment and I was happy to be with you in those moments and I will be still be happy. Precious Baekhyun ah, I’ll wait for you diligently. It’s okay to take a break. Whenever you look back, it will still be the same and I’m still here looking toward you, just like you who remain unchanged. I love you, my everything.

- The reason why I come to watch this video periodically is partly because of Baekhyun’s image in this video, partly because I also see myself while watching it too. Baekhyun ah, I remember myself while watching you. Thank you for being with me in the past, for the memories and please take care of me in the future as well.

- My heart was at peace because our Baekhyun looked so happy yesterday. You had hard time but thank you for staying strong. Baekhyun ah, no matter what they say, you have Eris by your side, so don't feel upset. Our Baekhyun, let's be happy. Our lovely Baekhyun, thank you so much for coming to my life. I always gain strength when I listen to your music! I love you so much!

- Whenever I have hard time, the existence of Byun Baekhyun himself is already a huge comfort. It was the existence that I didn't deserve. He was more precious than me. He was everything to me. His existence was more precious than anything else. I like EXO's Byun Baekhyun, but I just gradually like Byun Baekhyun, the person himself more. It has been a very long time. I started liking him when I started my 10s and I still like him to the last moment of my 10s. So it's my honor and happiness to spend my 10s with Baekhyun. Let's be together for a very long time in the future too, Baekhyun ah.

- A book would feel different when we read it at different ages, and it seems Baekhyun in this 'Don't Go' fancam is like that too. Whenever I watch it, elementary school me, middle school me, high school me, and adult me always feel refreshing, warmer in heart, and it never fails put a smile on my face naturally.

- Time flies so fast and if I had a child, I wanted to tell them that their mom used to love someone that shines this brightly and he is this beautiful.

- Baekhyun ah, I came here because I was so tired today. I think I keep coming here to find you because I was the happiest and prettiest when I liked you at that time. Thank you so much for being a ray of light during the my most difficult time, for me, your existence is so big that I can't express with words. I like this because there is you that I liked the most. I'm growing up but you're just the way you were when I liked you, you are the Peter Pan of my life, Baekhyun ah. Whenever I have a hard time, I miss those days, and I come to find you remembering you greeted me with your pretty and shiny look. Thank you so much. Even when I have a hard time, I don't want you to experience it, because your existence is that big and precious to me. The luckiest thing in my life is that I met you and I heard that the person who gives you the biggest strength when you are having a hard time is your life savior, and I'm so happy that you are that savior to me. Thank you so much for coming to me, who had neither dream nor hope, and thanks to you, I found energy in my life and I got a reason to live diligently. You're the reason I'm running toward my dream without giving up, Baekhyun ah. I want to be the best in this field I'm working on and meet you in a cool way. I wanted to tell you this when I meet you, so I am so thankful that you were the hope of my life, and my life shone brightly. Actually, I don't think I can say this, I think I'll cry when I see you. I couldn't talk to anyone. I was struggling alone. Looking at you, I think I'll be able to cheer up again. My Peter Pan Baekhyun ah, thank you so much for being the light in my life. I feel happy when my singer is you. Always be happy Baekhyun ah. Thank you so much, Baekhyun ah.





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